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Hey there, I'm Sunny Shell, a wretch saved by God's grace through faith in Jesus Christ the Lord. I'm married to the most incredible man on earth, who loves Jesus more than he loves me, and we have two precious adult sons.

The compassionately endures me through my metabolic disease (since 2004) that enables me to be more prayerful and careful about commitments I make and helps me to make the best use of my short time here on earth.

If you want to know more about me, click HERE.

Meditations from the Hospital Bed - 1


God's Gift of Grace: To Commune with Jesus

"let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water."
~ Hebrews 10:22

The Lord has been so gracious to me in showing me, that where I am does not define who I am. Since the day of my salvation, I am forever and will only be defined by my relationship with Jesus Christ. The fact that I'm in the hospital and was told last night, "you won't be going home anytime soon" changes nothing about Who resides in my heart and commands my every thought and instills in my heart His every desire.

Therefore, I have dedicated this time that I'm in the hospital to write notes to all of you as our merciful Heavenly Father provides me strength and wisdom to share all that He is teaching me during this time.

"Communion with God was a great thing; to evangelicals today it is a comparatively small thing. The Puritans were concerned about communion with God in a way we are not. The measure of our unconcern is the little that we say about it. When Christians meet, they talk to each other about their Christian work and Christian interests, their Christian acquaintances, the state of the churches, and the problems of theology -- but rarely their daily experience of God."
~J.I. Packer, A Quest for Godliness

My heart was deeply struck by this statement as I have fallen into the sin of "it's all about me". When I began to get very ill and knew that this illness was a bit different than all the past ones from these last five years. I found myself desiring attention and lots of it. I wanted people to feel sorry for me. So sorry for me that they would sacrifice their lives, family, church, etc. priorities and blessings so that they might pay attention to me. And when they did, I was unkind. I did not have wholesome talk, but gossip and bitterness regarding past hurts from churches I once attended. As I spoke, it was obvious I had not forgiven them, but instead had formed the insane idea that I was more righteous than they. It became clear to me last night after my dear sisters in Christ left my room, that I had sinned and grieved my glorious God and Savior, Jesus Christ; Who shed His precious blood to cleanse me from the filth of self-righteousness and self-glorification. I was sure at this point that I had not fulfilled what the Holy Spirit inspired the Apostle Paul to write:

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.~ Ephesians 4:29

I'm confident my words to my sisters last night, was corrupt, did not build them up in their faith, was not fitting for the occasion and most certainly did not impart God's grace upon them (Acts 4:33) so that we might fellowship and commune together as we ought in our Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ.

Therefore, I have repented of this sin and asked our merciful and very patient Heavenly Father to forgive me as I have (this time) truly forgiven those who have sinned against me; realizing that they have first sinned against God - just as I have.

I pray that today, I have imparted God's grace to you all by sharing with you the resurrected life of Christ within me. May the LORD our God who is gracious beyond what we can ever deserve bless you this day with His word, mercy, kindness, and abounding compassion as you seek to commune with Him, as you seek to rejoice in the truth that we have peace with the Lord God Almighty and may participate in the great gift of communing with Him because of Jesus.

"Christ is our best friend and ere long will be our only friend. I pray God with all my heart that I may be weary of everything else but converse and communion with Him"
~ John Owen


P.S.
I am very encouraged by all your comments as they truly bless my heart and inspire me to press on toward the prize God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. I apologize that at present, I am unable to respond as I continue to undergo many testings and procedures. Grace and peace to you all. I love you dearly my brothers and sisters in our awesome Lord Jesus.

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7 comments:

  1. Dear ♥Sunny,

    I am happy that you are being blessed by God and drawing nearer to Him.

    I know I need to work on Ephesians 4:29.

    Thank you for sharing from your heart. I love you dear sister of my heart!

    Continuing in praying for you….

    ♥Hope

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  2. Oh Sunny, you are surely a blessing to many. It's neat how you can blog while you're in the hospital. Even better you are staying in God's Word and not trying to get attention.
    Eph.4:29 was a verse I had memorized early in my relationship with the Lord and I still need to remember it often. Building others up and not gossiping or for me it was cussing.

    I know you have to be patient to be a patient so hang in there with all those tests and we'll pray for peace and answers and doctors that care & will do everything to help you.
    Take care
    Nannette

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  3. Thank you precious sisters Hope and Nannette. As you can see, I need to continue working on Eph. 4:29 as well. :-) And yes, it is hard to be a patient patient, but I know the Lord God is using even this to sanctify me and conform me more and more into the image of His Son, Christ Jesus our Lord.

    With great love to you both,
    Sunny

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  4. you may not know it but through your sharing of your sin area....the Holy Spirit used it to show me how I have been complaining and wanting attention and for people to feel sorry for me when I was in the hospital in pain as well.I am grateful fot the Holy Spirit showing Himself at work in our lives...it shows His ownership of us.Thank God He doesn't leave us alone to ourselves!! Thank you for your honesty...it was not shared in vain....praying for you sister :D
    Angela

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  5. Sunny, thank you for sharing and using this time to build us up though you are in pain and trouble.

    "Since the day of my salvation, I am forever and will only be defined by my relationship with Jesus Christ." What a wonderful statement! I hope this rings true in my life as well.

    It is true that communion with the Lord and sharing that communion with true, reverent communion with His Body does not shape our lives the way it should. I am thankful that you are spending time in communion and inspiring the rest of us to do the same.

    Thanks again, big sister!

    Still praying for you,
    Ruth

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  6. Thank you precious sisters Hope and Nannette. As you can see, I need to continue working on Eph. 4:29 as well. :-) And yes, it is hard to be a patient patient, but I know the Lord God is using even this to sanctify me and conform me more and more into the image of His Son, Christ Jesus our Lord.

    With great love to you both,
    Sunny

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  7. Dear ♥Sunny,

    I am happy that you are being blessed by God and drawing nearer to Him.

    I know I need to work on Ephesians 4:29.

    Thank you for sharing from your heart. I love you dear sister of my heart!

    Continuing in praying for you….

    ♥Hope

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