abandoned to Christ.

If my faith is fully in Christ, and I see Him -- that is, truly recognize Him for who He is, I will neither falter, waver or wane when another saint does, nor will I crumble if a saint who discipled and loved me is taken from me somehow, or be crushed by my circumstances that seem to envelope me. Rather, if I am fully abandoned to Christ, like Isaiah, I will shout, “Here am I! Send me!” (Isaiah 6:8) and I will relentlessly follow the Lord wherever He leads. I may follow in tears and with great heartache, but I will still follow (Psalm 126:5-6). Why is it that some of us are caught up in depression and do not go on spiritually as God leads us by His Spirit (Galatians 5:25)? I know, because I’ve done it. When I was fifteen, I attempted suicide three times because I was deeply depressed about my life: the abuse, the high school drama, the enormity of life and just plain tired of going on. Because I was not abiding in Christ, but had trained myself to find inspiration from, by and through...

“I will most gladly spend and be spent for your souls... Even if I am to be poured out as a drink offering upon the sacrificial alter of your faith, I am glad and rejoice with you all.” ~2 Cor 12:15a, Philippians 2:17 Do I spend my life for the faith of others or am I mostly concerned with my own purity? Do I spend my time in faithful and fervent prayer for others, or do I merely seek to improve and enjoy my own life? Am I willing to give everything I have for the sake of another knowing Christ, or for the one who already believes; to exhort them further in their faith? Am I a spiritual hog, hoarding all spiritual blessings for myself, and living off the faith of others, or am I working out my own salvation with fear and trembling, pouring myself out for Christ my God and those He came to save? Am I lost in myself or hid in Christ? “Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fea...