Ahhh….falling in love with Jesus, how can I count the ways? I cannot. For Who the Lord Jesus is, and all that He has done for me; there is no number, and no way to measure the splendor of His majesty.
Therefore, how can a person ever choose one moment, one time, one instance, over any other: to recall and share His greatness, His kindness, His faithfulness? I believe this is difficult for any of us. As even the Apostle John felt the same way, for he chose to close his gospel letter with this profound and true statement:
“Now there are also many other things that Jesus did. Were every one of them written, I suppose that the world itself could not contain the books that would be written.”
~ John 21:25
(ESV)
The memory I have chosen to share with you, is not one of extraordinary circumstance. Instead, I wanted to share one occasion that best depicts the epitome of my daily life, with my exceptional Savior, Jesus, the Christ.
Several years ago, as I was driving home one morning from dropping the boys off at school, I lifted my eyes to the sky. I was overwhelmed with the greatness of God, whom I had the privilege of calling my Father. As tears streamed down my face, my vision became blurred to the things of this world, yet clear, to see the awesome beauty of my Savior; and I felt so unworthy of such a gift.
I so desperately wished I could be Home with my Jesus. I hungered even more to draw near to Him that I became grieved with the constant struggle between my flesh and God’s Holy Spirit within me. As I became more and more distressed with this fierce inner battle, my heart remembered my Lord’s words to me when I was as child:
“When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up. Teach me Thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of my enemies. Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty. I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.”
~ Psalm 27:10-14
(KJV)
Just as my eyes were lifted to examine the vastness of the sky above me, my heart was also lifted, and it soared with rejoicing and praise for the King of kings, the Lord of lords, my Savior, my Master, my Jesus. From the overflow of my heart, came these words that streamed as gently and effortlessly as the tears upon my face.
Captivated
I am captivated
Completely illuminated
My heart’s elevated
By Your love
Your love
Teach me
Guide me and lead me
Holy Spirit knead me
Show me
The most excellent way
Refine me
Burn away the chaff
Give me Your mercy
And teach me to ask
For Your discipline
Oh LORD
Your Hope in me
Says there won’t always be
This struggle with my flesh
And Your Spirit
Cause one day…
I’ll be recreated
My spirit’ll be elated
My body newly stated
By Your love
Your love
Then I will see
You take my hand and hold me
See You in full glory
And I’ll never part again
From Your side
Your side
Thank You Lord Jesus,
That we'll never part again!
“and if children, then heirs – heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with Him in order that we may also be glorified with Him. For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God.”
Romans 8:17-19
(ESV)
