My Body Hates Food...

...but I love it, and am grateful to God for such a thing!

I love the rich, vibrant colors of fruits and vegetables.

I love the taste of juicy watermelons, cucumbers, oranges, name it, I love it!

I love the incredible aroma of a roast cooking for hours in the slow cooker.

I even love to go grocery shopping where I'm completely surrounded by food and am eager to create both nutritious and mouth-watering meals for my precious family and friends God has graciously blessed me with. I think you get the picture...


So why I am so grateful to God for such a thing? Because my body seems to hate it, yet my love for food is something I believe is a gift from God that has helped me to survive.

It is good to give thanks to the LORD, to sing praises to your name, O Most High; to declare your steadfast love in the morning, and your faithfulness by night.
~ Psalm 92:1-2

You see, if God had not given me such a fondness of food, I'm sure that I would either be dead, or much more ill than I am. Because I love food so much, regardless of how painful eating is, I keep doing it.

For those of you who have been with me for a while know that I have a lot of health issues. And most, if not all of it is surrounded by my very weak and sickly digestive system.

I nearly died in November 2007, have had countless procedures, tests, ER visits and throw in there a couple of surgeries, and what do you have? A train wreck; a.k.a. me. If it's not one thing, it's another. And not that I'm comparing myself to Job or would ever consider myself as righteous as he, but my life for the past five (5) years seems to imitate his a bit - at least, health wise, that is. Just after one doctor tells me of a disease that has attacked my body, and before he/she can finish telling me what we must do; another doctor is calling to tell me of yet another condition or disease that needs immediate attention.


Cutting to the chase:

In March of this year, I had a bout with colitis and unnecessary scripts that put me in the ER twice that month. Needless to say, I'm not taking any of those meds anymore.

I was recently diagnosed with IBS and put on meds for that, and while it seemed to help a bit, it didn't make enough of a difference for the very harsh side affects I experienced. So, unfortunately, I had to stop taking that.

My GI doc also discovered I don't produce lactase, the enzyme necessary for our bodies to digest lactose which is in pretty much everything. Due to this, my body kicks out most of what I eat. Very painful. So I have to take three Lactaid pills before every meal and two before snacks. Basically, I can't eat without taking it. It seemed to calmed things down...for about 2 weeks anyway.

I have a new family doctor (who just happens to be my Pastor's wife) and she's FABULOUS! She's not only REALLY, REALLY smart, but she's compassionate and more importantly, loves our Lord Jesus Christ.

I've been having memory problems (i.e., forgetting simple things, new things, and old things, as well as people I've sat down and visited with for several hours). All this has been going on for a few years now and it's gotten worse this past year. About 8 months ago, I also began to have breathing problems, tingling in my hands and feet as well as tremors in my hands and sometimes all over my body and I'm always tired and very weak. I often feel as if I'm going to fall down or pass out. Of course, all this is in addition to my digestive issues I continue to have.

Well, my wonderful new family doctor found out I have Vitamin B12 and Vitamin D deficiencies which pretty much explains most of my recent symptoms. My body is not absorbing B12. So I started my B12 shots which I will need for the rest of my life and have taken my first round of 50,000 units of Vitamin D.


I'm headed to the ER again in just a few hours. Why? Well, without going into all the gory details, let's just say that in the last 48 + hours, my body has chosen to flush me out about 40 times within the first 24 hours and about 20 more in the last 24 or so. All this with only one meal on Wednesday. No, it's not food poisoning. This has just been my life for the past five years. I was told by both my fam doc and GI doc to go to the ER yesterday, but honestly, I just didn't feel like it (not that I ever do). I was very tired and just wanted to get some sleep before I was poked and prodded for another 7+ hours. So like a good girl (sort of) I'm going after we get the boys off to school today.

The reason why I'm sharing this is because I believe that often without sharing the "yucky yucks" of our lives we don't really appreciate the beauty of God's gifts to us; as simple as they might seem at the time. But truly, there are no gifts from our great God that are are there?

Our God is an awesome God and He always answers the prayers of His children. They may not be the answers we want, like "No" or "Wait". And sometimes His answers may not come at the time we desire either. But regardless of whether or not we like, understand or are impatient for the answer; we can know for sure that our God's answers are always perfect in timing and righteous in nature.

By awesome deeds you answer us with righteousness, O God our salvation, the HOPE of all the ends of the earth and of the farthest seas
~ Psalm 65:5

So I praise and exalt the name of the LORD God Almighty. Why? Simply, because He is worthy.

The circumstances in our lives may change but our circumstances don't determine who God is, nor do they change who God is. He is kind, He is merciful, God is gracious, full of compassion and forgiving. Only in God is there hope and only in Him is there true peace. The Lord God remains the same: robed in His majesty; enthroned on high; reigning in righteousness, goodness and truth.

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed in us.
~ Romans 8:18

Therefore it is good to praise, give thanks and find joy in God first thing in the morning and to remember His faithfulness at night; whether He's brought us through trials or given us much rest. Either way, He has carried us; therefore it is only fitting that we give honor and glory where it is due - and the Lord our God is truly worthy.

So, no matter where you are and no matter what's happening in your life, I invite you to worship, praise and glorify the LORD with me! Truly, there is no better place on earth to be!

Let this be recorded for a generation to come,
so that a people yet to be created may praise the LORD:
that He looked down from His holy height;
from heaven the LORD looked at the earth,
to hear the groans of the prisoners,
to set free those who were doomed to die,
that they may declare in Zion the name of the LORD,
and in Jerusalem His praise,
when peoples gather together,
and kingdoms, to worship the LORD.
~ Psalm 102:18-22