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Where does your faith and trust come from?

"Hi Sunny, I found your blog not too long ago and I am amazed at your heart for the Lord. I am no where even close to feeling what you feel for God. It always seems to be a struggle for me. It is a long story. As I read your post in regard to your husband's diagnosis I noticed at the bottom you included this statement in regard to yourself, "in addition to of all that the Lord has chosen for me regarding my health", I have to admit I was amazed to see that. In regard to your statement I wonder if you can explain to me how you came to the place of knowing that your illness is something God has chosen for you? Can you tell me where you found Scripture in regard to this so I can see it and perhaps apply it in my own situation although mine is quite different from yours in that I have constant pain and no diagnosis. It is scary sometimes, yet you seem to have peace. I guess I haven't learned to trust God very well. Blessings to you and thank you for sharing your fai...
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Just wanna get something straight...

...I'm not fearful, ...I'm not in dread, ...I'm not fretting over my 7 years of declining health, ...I'm not feverishly seeking physical healing, ...and I'm not afraid to die or face the rest of my life this way. But what I am, is grateful -- to all of you for your fervent and faithful prayers on my behalf. And also for your precious prayers for my wonderful husband and sons. I'm also very grateful to all of you for your encouraging comments and emails. And I want to stay this way. For those of you who have been faithfully praying for me, please don't pray for anything I've listed above, for these are not the things I need. I need prayers for my attitude, for there are times that I truly get sick and tired, of being sick and tired, and I just want to go Home. Selfish, I know, but it's the hard and real truth. Sometimes I lose focus on what's important -- Jesus Christ and living for His pleasure and glory alone. And when I do this, I have pity p...
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Learning the Same Lesson

Is it just me, or do any of you have to learn the same lesson, over and over again? For the past several days, I've been in a bit of a gloomy mood...which is very awkward for someone named "Sunny". But the truth is, since this past Thursday, I've been in a pit of despair, frustration, sadness and even a bit of anger. Until last week, I didn't know all those emotions could co-exist, but apparently they can, and did. Why did this happen? Well, last Thursday, I didn't get the greatest news from my most recent blood work. I knew I'd not been feeling well for the past month or so, but I kept thinking it was something else. Anything else besides that my health was still declining. I thought it could be something seasonal, something temporal that would go away just as quickly as it seems to have come. I was sure that despite how I felt, I was doing better. After all, I was doing everything my doctors asked me to do and more . As weak as I felt, I began to be su...
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When You Celebrate, Don't Forget...

...the fathers & mothers, sons & daughters, brothers & sisters, uncles & aunts, cousins & grandparents, who sacrificed their lives, so that, we can celebrate this special day Memorial Day with all our family members. The cost of freedom is not free. "Memorial Day, which falls on the last Monday of May, commemorates the men and women who died while serving in the American military. Originally known as Decoration Day, it originated in the years following the Civil War and became an official federal holiday in 1971. Many Americans observe Memorial Day by visiting cemeteries or memorials, holding family gatherings and participating in parades. Unofficially, at least, it marks the beginning of summer...It was first widely observed on May 30, 1868..." ~ quote found on: History.com Many willingly, lovingly and proudly gave up the their lives, their hopes and dreams, so that you and your family can live out theirs. Many willingly, lovingly and proudly gave...
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My Second Love

I'm so thankful to the LORD for providing me with my second love -- my darling husband! After listening to many women throughout my life, hearing from many of you here and also from the precious sisters from My Second Love: A Proverbs 31 Study  Bible study, I have come to realize how very rare my husband is. And I don't mean compared to men of this world, as I don't compare my husband to any of them. For what does light have to do with darkness (2 Corinthians 6:15, Galatians 6:4)? But really, I don't compare my husband with anyone else's either, as this too, is not pleasing in the sight of the Lord . I do, however, compare my husband with what God's word says about a husband and what he ought to be like: "Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave Himself up for her, that He might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, so that He might present the church to Himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkl...
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Loving the Unlovable

For many of us, the phrase, "Love the unlovable" is not new. It's noble, it's Christ-like and it is extremely difficult for most of us to faithfully and diligently do. "For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers [and sisters], what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect." ~ Matthew 5:46-48 Like most people, I suffer from the great battle that wars within me to do what my Lord and Savior Jesus commands me to do—love the unlovable. I find myself struggling to extend love or kindness to someone who basically smacks me in the face with every opportunity they get. These are not the kind of people I naturally inclined to love, share God's kindness with or really, desire to be around...at all. These are usually the type of people I try to keep at least a 1-mile rad...
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Not Good News, But GREAT News!

These were the exact words of my Cardiologist today, "I don't have good news about your heart today. I have GREAT news!" Thank you all for your prayers! ♥ I had my follow-up appointment with my Cardiologist today to discuss the results of my stress echo and echo I had undergone within the past few weeks. All glory and praise be to God my Father who gives us all good things according to His will! Whether the news was good or seemingly "bad" (meaning, it wasn't what I wanted to hear); I trust what the LORD my God has said - He alone is good, therefore everything He does is good, regardless of how I may feel about it, or how others may view it. The truth is the truth. And God is Truth. "O LORD, what is man that You regard him, or the son of man that you think of him?" ~ Psalm 144:3 "As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord takes thought for me. You are my Help and my Deliverer; do not delay O my God!" ~ Psalm 40:17 In the past few ...
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Death is Not Dying: A Faith That Saves

Dearest brothers and sisters in the Lord Jesus, I know I very rarely write personal notes, but I felt today, it was a good thing to do. It's been quite some time since I've written anything. And those of you who have been with me for a while have probably already figured out why...my health has once again taken a decline. Due to my severe vitamin B12 and D deficiencies and the inability for my body to absorb and maintain normal values of both, my doctors have decided it was wise to check my blood at least every three months. Of course, I've never quite made it three months without having my blood checked, but it is a something to look forward to. ☺ Back in December I was referred to yet another specialist - a pancreatic specialist, as it has become apparent my pancreas is not functioning well. Currently the pancreatic function test that is available is a very bad one and most often only detects a malady when 80% of the pancreas' function is no longer s...
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